Horizontal Lives

True Tales of the Infamous Courtesan: Persephone N. Hades and her Horizontal Life underground. How she got there, her mis-adventures and her struggle to re-surface.

Saturday, March 19, 2005


He is a young (38) Orthodox Rabbi for a prestigious Synagogue in White Plains.

This is our third meeting.
I said something. Did something.
He stares at me, mouth agape.

You’re Jewish.
Oh my G-d. You’re Jewish.
I am.
I didn’t know that.
No. You didn’t.
You don’t look Jewish.
No. I don’t.
So now what?
It’s up to you.
How come I didn’t know you were Jewish?
Does it matter?
In a way.
I know.
Do you know what I’m thinking?
Tell me.
Okay. Jewish girls are to marry. Shikusa’s are to fool around with. To desire. Shiksa’s are the mistresses.
Yes. But the way you say it is too direct.
But true?
Same problem Hollywood has. Anyways…
It makes me uncomfortable when you say it like that.
I’m sorry.
You are Jewish.
I am.
Huh. (Pause) I can’t believe I didn’t figure it out sooner.
I didn’t let you.
Because I knew you would react this way. (Pause) Does it really matter?
Yes and no.
Come with me.
(I lead him to the bedroom. He is naked.)
Bend over and hold the bed.
Let me hold your hair so I can see it.
(I put the stems of my long hair in his hand as he faces away from me.)
That makes it better?
The Blonde. The Red.
Oh. Why?
Jews don’t have blonde or red hair.
Who says?
Just do it.

(I coat my finger and the tiny dildo with KY. Tease his anus. We find a rhythm. Slide in. Moaning, circling. Hot and sexy. Feel desire. Growing cock heats up and stiffens. Free hand finds his shaft and strokes from behind. He cums on the mattress, hating himself. Because he knows.
He knows I’m Jewish.)

Don’t move. Just let me hold your hair.
(He holds my strawberry-blond locks in his lips. I stay behind, unseen.)

Jewish girls have all colors of hair. You know that?
Just brown.
That’s just not true. I have cousins—one with natural blond hair, one brunette, one with natural red hair.
Not in my experience.
Okay. (Pause.) Do you want to take a shower?
(He leaves the bedroom without looking back at me.)

(Dressed. At the door.)
I can never see you again.
That’s just silly. Especially for an intelligent man like yourself.
I can’t.
Okay. I will miss you.

He calls every now and again. I don’t return the call. More for him than for me.
Ah well.
We may both be Jewish,
but we are aquainted with a very different G-d.


At 9:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

What is this pick your sin week?

By his lights (not mine) he's guilty of at least fornication if not adultery. That's OK as long as it's a shikusa ( I assume goy)

NOW he feels guilty. Plus the unspoken implication that there are girls you marry & girls you desire and have sex with. There are so many standards being broken either way I get dizzy just thinking about it. I'm insulted and I'm not even female. I thought the human race had grown up a little bit. Apprently not. I wouldn't have told him.

I don't think that GOD Almighty creator of the universe is going to lose sleep over this: Why should he? I like to look at pictures from the Hubble telescope and then pick up a Bible (or Torah Or q'uran) and ask whoever's around "Do you honestly think the intelligence that created all this (plus you and me) can be contained in any book or any human mind"? (or any Dogmatic religion)

At 9:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

HI Pita...
I understand what you'r saying but, actually, he's just a human being with needs and desires and strange guilts built into his psyche--like we all have in some form or another.
If he's guilty of anything, it's just not being honest to himself and his spouse about his sexuality.
In today's world and in my humble opinion, that's not too big a sin.
He is a sweet soul and I miss him and feel sad for him.

At 11:51 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I feel sorry for both of you. Part of the maturing process and attempt at enlightenment is in overcoming the "hardwired" guilt we grew up with. Part of that too is accepting and honoring other religious belief systems without being taken over by them. I don't think God created our sexuality to have so much guilt attached to it , but it is hard to overcome. I expected more wisdom & compassion from a rabbi that I guess the average person. Didn't mean to sound harsh, religious dogma and intolerance are hot button issues with me. Have a pleseant trip and send us a postcard. Shouldn't you be packing?


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